We began praying about growing our family about a year ago and adoption came to our hearts but honestly, it seemed so impossible where we are right now. We have always thought about adoption and hoped that one day God would call us to it. This summer I was having moments of weakness and doubt… about myself as a mother and my ability to invest in the people that God has called us to. While I was praying adoption came to mind again. I felt like God said that though this road of mothering young kids and engaging/ministering in a different language and culture is difficult, by the grace of God I am able. I felt like God said that now is the time to grow our family through adoption, despite my fears and feelings of inadequacy. Danny and I prayed about this and felt right about it… we were in! After some further discussions with those wiser than us, we thought “are we sure this is the right time for our family!?!” We again dedicated 30 days of prayer and again we felt like God was calling us to adopt…. And we’re going for it!
|having a fun time making our sign... and i did intend to have a "G" on the end of "adoptin" but ran out of room and didn't want to do it over. my capacity for crafts has limits. :)|
First, we are adopting because we believe that God is specifically directing our family in that direction. We believe that God’s heart is for adoption and there are many ways for people to be involved in that… we feel led to be involved by becoming parents. We were once fatherless children in this world, without hope. And our heavenly Father sacrificed His Son so that we too may become His sons and daughters (Eph 1:4-6). We are adopted and this adoption is the means to our salvation and the eternity that we will spend with our Heavenly Father. Though our decision to adopt will not “save” this child, we believe it is God’s heart to bring the fatherless and forgotten into a family (Ps 68:5-6), to be loved and cherished, just as God loves and cherishes that child. We pray that our child will know his/her immense value in our eyes, but most importantly in the eyes of the Heavenly Father (Matt 10:30-31).
|this is ruthie, our sudanese doll from auntie kim. ruthie is the beginning of our conversation of race. :) |
WHY ETHIOPIA (and not Indonesia)?
Well, Indonesia would have made sense, but the adoption process is very uncertain here. There are no American agencies, no set process for families to follow, and the finalization of the adoption is very uncertain. And, there is a law stating you can't adopt if you already have 2 kids (though we've known people to get around it). Because of this we decided against Indonesia. We chose Ethiopia for very practical reasons. We want to stay rooted in Indonesian culture and language and months out of the country does not help that. Ethiopia requires two short trips, which allows us to stay “planted” in Indonesia through our adoption journey.
We wish we knew. We started the process in November and it’s slow going. This week we had our home study visit here in Indonesia... we hope to have our home study written and completed in the next month or two. This is a long journey ahead of us and potentially even longer because we live overseas. We are going through an agency that is experienced helping expats adopt internationally and have been so pleased with them thus far!
I’m learning (already) that I have go through this journey with open hands. I wanted our home study to be done months ago but we just keep running into things that are prolonging it. With each obstacle I feel my grip letting go a bit more. I have more peace about the timing now than I did when we started…. and I pray that continues to grow. I know that God will bring our child home in His timing and I can trust that. I may need to be reminded of this truth countless times throughout the next year, but I know that God is working a deeper trust into my heart… and for that I’m thankful.
So, welcome to our journey. Please pray for our child, for our family and for this process. This is another step of faith for us… there are so many unknowns. But, we know that our heavenly Father cares more for our child than we ever will… and we trust that He will be faithful to lead this journey for His glory.